Ambria A.
Hi, I’m a little nervous to be posting this. I want to start by saying today I’m feeling confused and drained. I’m not sure what my next step should be and I feel like when I take one step forward, I’m knocked down 5. With that being said, I’m not giving up. I’m a 25 yo woman, working a full time job and going to school. I’m on my own, struggling and I’m trying to make better decisions for my future.
I can’t change the things that have happened in the past whether it was from poor decisions on my part or things that have happened out of my control. All I know is that I am alive right now. I can keep fighting right now. This road that I’m traveling on is full of fog right now. I’m not sure if the people that I care for will still be around me or what will happen in the future. I’m not sure of the proper way of how to balance being selfless and selfish.
I feel like I get caught up in the fear of what if… anyway sorry for rambling but I needed this. I know that I just have to keep fighting the good fight and that I’ll get there one day. I owe it to myself and my future children and husband that I hope to have one day. Lol just right now I’m gonna keep taking me and this little paddle of mine up this creek. You guys have a great day.